Letter #33

yes!!! byt the way HELLO FOLKS! its your ever mixed up confusing and ever so...  I ran out of big words.... anyway I'm here so be happy dang it!!
so I think I'll start off to say that I THIS STATE IS FRIGG'N COLD!!!!! I've been walking aroud all week and let me tell you... this place is messed up!!! its all green and crap but NOTHING LOOKS SNOWY like at all!!! I remember being single layered in NEGATIVE TEMPERATURES and STILL being warmer than I was out here!!! my face is chapped and my ears are dead. its false advertisement I tell ya!!!
also, I am kinda outta energy, family who has served on missions, what do you do when your just out of it?
I've felt like crap for months, but I still keep trucking, I know how to work when I feel crummy, but for once I just kinda ran outta juice.
also, how do I connect with mission presidents? I've been so used to adults liking me that i'm not accustomed to them not talking to me much so I dunno what to do there.
but, the first story is to answer moms question, yes I have received all packages, I haven't opened the one from christmas eve but I DID open the other ones.
you gotta label those things darn it! I dunno when or what I'm supposed to do with the box so I normally just open it as soon as possible incase theres instructions that need to be fufilled as soon as possible. so write on the box so I can either wait till the end of the day or something XD
if you send it via regular mail it will be at the post office.
now, on to the story, I got the tree and brother Kirby was able to give us I ride, the only person I knew that we could give that tree to was betty, so friday night we drove over and dropped it off to betty, she was very greatful, I think she almost cried ^^ but the best part was we learned that she destroyed the contraband in her daughters home, so NOW we can go over!... bad news is that the people we were hoping would move into their home would, I remember talking to them about it and they said that for some of the things they did in there they would need some one to professionally clean it.
whilst expressing my disapointment they were like "thats okay, we're still looking around and have made alot of calls to apartments and things"
to which It took me a minute to comprehend what they mean't.
"... OH! yeah right... thats what i was thinking about ^^''''"
wow.... my emailing kinda sucks today XP

alright folks, so heres what we got for this week.
this week we have accumulated.
1 1/2 activated less actives.
2 out of the blue investagors.
2 referals that we are incontact with
and ONE PERSON ON DATE!
BAM thats right folks smart did something right for once!
our first visit was kinda rough, I haven't been able to teach in pretty much a month and have spiritually become rusty and just down right stuck BUT the member there is her roommate and she's pretty much accepted everything we said so far.
we asked her if she had read and prayed about the book of mormon and she nodded.
I then asked her what she felt. she was quiet for a minute before saying and nodding that it was true! so BAM! also, I was sitting there thinking when I got a familiar thought, in Gigharbor I had once had a prompting to look over and ask if the mom in a part member family wanted to be baptized, I didn't which was lame. but I did, not as abruptly as I would have wanted but i asked her if baptism was something she was looking into and she said yes! so we put her on date! tomlinsons really stepped up to the plate since my last anxiety attack, fortunately i panic in silence so hes not really aware... anyway thats not the point.
as far as I go... I dunno. i think I'll talk to some one about it.
I'm wondering if maybe some medical stuff might be affecting me.
tomorrow is the christmas party...  its supposed to from 9 in the morning till 4..... 0.0 thats one heck of a party.... okay folks be honest, has my writing gotten cheesey? I feel really cheesey... like you could pour me on nachos..... well leasha is on date, I already mentioned that, we're gonna go visit betty more often thanks to the car. OH!!! time for my record in skip bo!
today I won again after a really rough start, but the other day I actually SKUNKED dicjose!! i felt bad, she hates being skunked (which is losing with too many cards basically) but I won so that was cool!
.... I don't like other missionaries, like at all.
I have a good couple favorites, namely Rhodes, steed and hamblin green and jameson...
I wouldn't mind as much but since I've been so low its been frustrating the crap out of me that they're starting to rub off on me. I wanna get away from them.
larson is okay, and lately they have been more tolerable (or I'm becoming more a jerk.) but then they start talking crap about people and I.. its those times where I just wanna leave. I've got too much on my plate as it is what with my own problems the LAST THING I NEED IS TO-...  anyway, I won't go there.  anyway, today i will be working on letters! I hope all is well back home, i miss Arizona christmases.

thats all I got time for now folks! feel free to write me I gotta get better at catching up on what I got!

Love,
Elder J Smart

Letter #32

 this week I've been just down right burnt out - this whole deal with betty... well its kinda messed me up, a WHOLE lot of crap happened this week... so I might as well go in reverse order, last night we ran into a basher who was kinda a Jerk..... I tried so hard to answer things but he wouldn't let me talk and he pretty much tore stuff apart and really... just wasn't nice. if I had been feeling better from the prior experiences of this week I might have taken it better... writing about it makes me feel a little better... anyway, OH! I did get a letter savannah wrote me!!  it was so short but I didn't care, I just know that I was SOOO happy.  so, I've messed up a crap ton this week... Sunday after church a kid came in asking that we come in and give a blessing to his step brother... his name was Zachary... he had been hit when he hit some black ice and pulled over to the side of the road, the car after him hit it then hit him... I don't know if he's alive or not, but.... when I was finally able to give him the blessing, I couldn't.... I froze up, brother bennion and norby were there and they offered to do it but... I dunno I guess I let pride get in the way. that was a real bummer... I stumbled through it and did my best.
I had another anxiety attack, it wasn't AS bad as the last one I had a couple months ago but its left me a little messed up.

anyway, so up date on betty, its been kinda odd but she hasn't called me in the last couple of days... so we went to mow her lawn last Tuesday, we didn't have the car so we had to walk from the library ALL the way to her house, brother Danielle was meeting us there, well he went there early and was working on her door nobs... she talked to him for FOUR HOURS!!!!! he told us the job SHOULD have taken him an hour and thirty minutes....  on top of that she would continue to call us.. about her situation, she was doing really bad... she broke down at least 2 or three times... each time she called. but as we were mowing she left to go do things because she didn't feel safe leaving her home, brother daniels had ALOT of concerns about the situation (especially with the idea of possibly removing drugs from her home) we assured him we would NOT be touching any of that, but the situation was really sketchy on its own.  so we're mowing and suddenly we get a call from brother Kirby who told us he was coming to pick us up due to the situation, it makes a lot more sense after talking to him about it, I'm just kinda worn out about all of it.

THEN we were in the sketchiest place yet during the thanksgiving church social a guy named david was given a heads up and put on date by the sisters... he lives in a homeless shelter... we go in there and... yeah that place was sketchy, we asked david when a good time to talk to him (AWAY FROM ALL THE CRAZY) and we scheduled a time at the church the next day.... one problem, we forgot that we had a scheduled meeting with an APOSTLE!!!!!! elder Anderson came, it was a pretty interesting meeting, he talked to the mission for about an hour, it was funny how comfortable he was with everything, he would just kinda sort things out and talk whenever to the whole of us.  we got to shake his hand briefly.  he answered a couple things as far as baptisms go, talking about how baptism is a step and how they should have a desire to repent as well as faith before being baptized. he was nice.

well this has been my longest email in AWHILE but I'll here from you all soon! CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
that's all I got now folks

Love,
Elder J Smart