Letter #20

Dear Everyone: I've kinda had my worst week ever! I've been transfered to Lakewood now. Me and mosbrucker had a HUGE fight and I went on an exchange and felt kinda lonely and left out... I'm with ZL's and a greenie. president needed someone to take over the area, and I obviously didn't have it in me. In alot of ways my OCD is alot worse, I feel fuzzed out and i had a HUGE anxiety attack so I was panicking and fighting an... it sucked XP sunday was pretty dry, I felt pretty bummed that I was leaving, despite all of my grief and anxiety I really really LIKED rochester... not as much as home but still. I was fine until I got to the striblings.... I cried a little, but then my stupid OCD keeps messing with things and I keep... gah, I'm so frustrated with myself. well, I got to see epriams rescue!!!! we LOVED it! it was so awesome! WAY funnier than the other church movies, honsetly the most entertaining church movie I have ever seen. I really really liked ephriam! we had two baptisms though!!! right before I left I got to see natalie get baptized, ate a couple cups of ice cream etc etc. then on sunday... the day before I left I... well yesterday, Jean got baptised... I had a hard time with the missionary moment, I couldn't think of really anything to say.... I feel kinda like a defective elder mom.