Letter #28

Joshua's 30th Letter

I always have so much on my mind that I forget about all of the wonderful things and I get more and more antsy that I'll never be the same.... I HAVE been getting better all the time but I still worry a lot.  I also have been dealing with a iffy temper that only seems to come out when I think of my loved ones.

I WISH I could be more vocal and firm...
I thank you all so much for the love you've all sent. please keep it coming

OH we did run into a couple Saturday night! we invited them to church and they said they had just been talking about it.... they didn't show but hey! its a good experience.!

folks, I hate to admit but its kinda slow in this crazy city. I'm sure its mostly my own dang fault BUT, I'm working hard to talk to EVERYBODY its weird cuz lately I've been struggling with it, so much time in mental shut down that I've been unable to pick up my ol wacky nature.  sometimes this world just aint any fun but we're working on it the best we can - me and Williams too.

to savannah:
I love what your doing. I'm not upset about any of your work so keep going and try hard, lemme know if I can send stuff to help the blog! =3 something I can work on on my preparation days.

to travis:
hey, so I'm having a difficult time with something, there are MILLIONS on perspectives of the missionaries out here and I don't know how to sort them all out, twixt the work aholics and the junkies I don't know where 'I' fit in.

so I look over at the screen on this ladies computer... and theres a little link that says 'Mormons believe in christ'..... lemme just say that now even the random link people are even on our side.  I've grown too comfortable thinking that everyone thinks we're wrong and that everyone hates us. maybe I need to... -shrug- I dunno maybe I'll figure it out.

remind me to remember some of my Lakewood stories there were some funny times there.  like with lonas, one time he was standing in the door way of the bathroom singing... about how he was going to go to the bathroom when he finishes he closes the door and with perfect timing I come up to the door and start a tiny applause (you know, finger tips to palms, the fancy kind) and he starts going
"thank you thank you, no your too kind" and so forth XD
well I'm not big on how short this letter is XP
I'll let ya'll know when some... oh yeah.. we almost died XD
EVERYONE in our area is a TERRIBLE driver -.- like seriously.. I'm starting to think that 'I' could drive better than them.... I know right?
which actually lead to one of my first promptings for my companions.
so Holt is driving on prep day and its feeling kinda fast and reckless (don't know if it was or not but I felt nervous.)
so I turned off the music and said.
"holt, theres something I need to tell you... I love you, your a great missionary.... but if you crash this car so help me I will beat the ever living crap out of you."
-silence-
so I'm working on it.

Love,
Elder J Smart